[ The silence that lingers might make him wonder if she just decided to hang up. Finally though, it breaks, and the usual lightness to her tone no matter what the situation has dropped. She decides to tell him something similar to what she'd told Newt. It wasn't an easy admission - Sakamoto's the only one she's willingly told - but one that needed to be made now nonetheless. ]

I don't know if you remember Jo's post but she called me a youkai. We're kind of a mix of animal and what people think of as 'demons.' For a good reason. Most of us eat people. [ It goes without saying her kind isn't an exception to this rule. ]

We don't have to. I never did until Haven. Do you remember me telling you about how Kite experimented on me? He- he pumped me full of some other lady's magic and it drove me crazy. I ate her. [ The revelation comes with a quiver in her voice; the woman's screams still ring in her ears when she feels her grip on her sanity slipping. ] And it was kind of like a I was a carnivore tasting meat for the first time after being raised vegan. I couldn't stop. Nothing was [ is, she thinks ] as good anymore. It became an addiction. That's my 'problem.'

Eventually, Wade found me after my latest victim. I was a mess. [ Izumo, she recalls. He'd trusted her. ] He- he can regenerate. So we made a deal. He'd help keep me fed and I wouldn't hurt anyone else. It was working well until -

[ Until in a bout of Yao driven gluttony she'd eaten his still beating heart from his chest. ] - until I hurt him, too. So I was terrified and desperate and turned to Yao for help. You know how that ended up.

Sometimes it's hard to keep in check when Yao decides to screw with us. I try to do right, but I. Obviously I'm not as strong as I like to think I am.

[ And that's that, one would think. Yet she adds a little more, somberly- ]

But I've made up my mind. I'm not going to hurt anyone anymore. I won't. [ No matter the cost to her own health, no matter what. ] Not even Wade. I can't.