[ There's a lot of weight behind those words for Rose; she's never been considered part of a crew. In the ring, it was kill or be killed. Only Ren had ever looked out for her and once he was dead -
Well. She'd had to start looking out for her. And that was just really the way things went for a long, long time. There was no one but herself and she'd resigned herself to the fact that would never change. Being a lone wolf - literally and metaphorically - was just how it was supposed to be. How it would always be. That was what she'd believed.
Until she met Peter, anyway. He'd reminded her what it means to rely on people, to allow them to help. He'd reminded her that sometimes she can't take the world upon her shoulders try as she might to. When he didn't have to, when he shouldn't have he'd saved her from Hiromitsu. Let himself consider her to be part of his crew despite the brief time she'd been around.
Yet she'd only managed to fuck that up. As she always does. As she always will.
When it really comes down to it, Rose isn't sure she knows how to be part of a crew. She isn't sure she knows how to truly let people in anymore. It's why she ran, why she runs. For as much as she wants to try and believe maybe she could be part of his crew - It's just easier to be alone than to try and figure out how she fits with others. So that's why what she says next rings with a certain sincerity. ]
I'm not... really crew member material. I'm - You don't want someone like me in your crew, trust me.
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Well. She'd had to start looking out for her. And that was just really the way things went for a long, long time. There was no one but herself and she'd resigned herself to the fact that would never change. Being a lone wolf - literally and metaphorically - was just how it was supposed to be. How it would always be. That was what she'd believed.
Until she met Peter, anyway. He'd reminded her what it means to rely on people, to allow them to help. He'd reminded her that sometimes she can't take the world upon her shoulders try as she might to. When he didn't have to, when he shouldn't have he'd saved her from Hiromitsu. Let himself consider her to be part of his crew despite the brief time she'd been around.
Yet she'd only managed to fuck that up. As she always does. As she always will.
When it really comes down to it, Rose isn't sure she knows how to be part of a crew. She isn't sure she knows how to truly let people in anymore. It's why she ran, why she runs. For as much as she wants to try and believe maybe she could be part of his crew - It's just easier to be alone than to try and figure out how she fits with others. So that's why what she says next rings with a certain sincerity. ]
I'm not... really crew member material. I'm - You don't want someone like me in your crew, trust me.
[ It'll only keep hurting them both. ]