[ She's spent too much time with Peter not to catch the falter in his smile, and there's something that twinges oddly in her chest with it.
"No reason," she thinks, is completely inaccurate.
But she also doesn't know how to call him on it or how to bring it up herself. That heaviness in the wake of their near-kiss still sits between them, and it seems like something that should be discussed (since they obviously are terrible at legitimately acting like it never happened, like things were the same as they'd always been), but she is so far out of her depth that she has no idea how to say anything about it.
... She still isn't sure if she should.
Reasonably, she knows that agreeing to dance with Peter again is another kind of boundary-crossing thing, but it feels more like their adventures together when they'd tried so many new things (something she misses when she lets herself stop and think about it). The kiss is too... concrete, too frightfully legitimate in a way that opens new doors she isn't sure they'd be able to close if they needed to.
So instead, she just shrugs in a mirror of his own gesture. ]
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"No reason," she thinks, is completely inaccurate.
But she also doesn't know how to call him on it or how to bring it up herself. That heaviness in the wake of their near-kiss still sits between them, and it seems like something that should be discussed (since they obviously are terrible at legitimately acting like it never happened, like things were the same as they'd always been), but she is so far out of her depth that she has no idea how to say anything about it.
... She still isn't sure if she should.
Reasonably, she knows that agreeing to dance with Peter again is another kind of boundary-crossing thing, but it feels more like their adventures together when they'd tried so many new things (something she misses when she lets herself stop and think about it). The kiss is too... concrete, too frightfully legitimate in a way that opens new doors she isn't sure they'd be able to close if they needed to.
So instead, she just shrugs in a mirror of his own gesture. ]
I haven't decided otherwise.
All you have to do is ask.